Friday, March 17, 2006
Terrible day
So today has been a pretty terrible day. I woke up to find my business checking account in the negative. Those assholes at my wholesaler took a payment a whole month early. I have a loan which I can use to make payments if necessary, but I was took that this particular draft was coming out on April 15 not March 15. Then, my son had not finished his homework from the night before. That was a huge fight that resulted in me taking him to school and not being able to exercise. I realized about noon that I never fed him breakfast so I felt very guilty for the rest of the day. I was also watching our friend's son today. He didn't really talk to me so I left him upstairs all day. I felt bad that I couldn't spend any time with him.
Then, I had a couple of patients who I suspect of drug abuse. One person may be taking another person's medication. The other has seen 4 different doctors in 2 weeks. I like these people, but it is my job to deal with drug diversion and doctor shopping. It fills me with anxiety. Next, I called the president of the wholesaler on the advise of a colleague. Wow. Apparently, they think I am going to fail after 4.5 months. I called to address the withdrawal of the money from my account. He told me that he had stuck his neck out for me, that they would have never helped me open if they had known I did not have the working capital loan, and that I was not ordering enough to stay open. Okay. These may be issues that we need to talk about, but I called about the mistake that THEY made. He insinuated that I had not been honest about my loan situation. I told everyone that would listen to me. I told A, my sales rep, repeatly that I had no money. I am probably stuck with them for 2 more years, but I may start shopping for someone to buy my loans from them. I feel like the abused girlfriend of a cop. Everyone else thinks this company is great, but they keep kicking me while I am down.
On a positive note, they offered to payment bank charges. I still love this job and this community. I will succeed.
Then, I had a couple of patients who I suspect of drug abuse. One person may be taking another person's medication. The other has seen 4 different doctors in 2 weeks. I like these people, but it is my job to deal with drug diversion and doctor shopping. It fills me with anxiety. Next, I called the president of the wholesaler on the advise of a colleague. Wow. Apparently, they think I am going to fail after 4.5 months. I called to address the withdrawal of the money from my account. He told me that he had stuck his neck out for me, that they would have never helped me open if they had known I did not have the working capital loan, and that I was not ordering enough to stay open. Okay. These may be issues that we need to talk about, but I called about the mistake that THEY made. He insinuated that I had not been honest about my loan situation. I told everyone that would listen to me. I told A, my sales rep, repeatly that I had no money. I am probably stuck with them for 2 more years, but I may start shopping for someone to buy my loans from them. I feel like the abused girlfriend of a cop. Everyone else thinks this company is great, but they keep kicking me while I am down.
On a positive note, they offered to payment bank charges. I still love this job and this community. I will succeed.
# posted by Dawn @ 2:04 PM 
